angiepants [one pocket at a time]

I thought I wanted to do Pediatrics.  Now I think Neuro, Prosthetics, inpatient or homecare sounds really interesting.

Finding something I’ll like dedicating the rest of my life to plus somethingI’m really good out scares the hell outta me.

I live for Alliteration.

Things that made me smile today

• After a long discussion, my mom saying “You’re going to miss being an RA.  As much work as it is, you’re good at it”
• Declining the CandyShop Apartment I really loved.  It was a month too early that I had to be realistic about not being able to pay rent for. But, I had a really nice “I decline but honestly loved the place/roommates” conversation with the guy.
• Sippin’ on Muddled Lemonade :)

Things I just need to write down, move on, but still keep my eye on

Residents.  At 6pm today I was doing homework (with difficulty staying awake) when a close resident calls and bangs on my door to get me to help a girl on their floor.  They didn’t know her and she was unconscious and throwing up. 

In the end, two were transported to the Hospital for Alcohol Intoxication.  I had a ‘Pow Wow’ meeting with the 5 residents whose helped the Police that THEY called.  I wanted to make sure they were OKAY after seeing all that. One even helped the EMS clean and carry the girl out down the elevator and onto the stretcher.

I’m just so proud of them.  I think they’re afraid of some of their friends getting in”trouble”but my concern is, and always has been, for their safety.  I don’t enjoy  having to document things because I’m contracted to do so.  I hope they really understood that when we talked.

During the chaotic rush, I got a “oh and hey“ that another resident is taking a leave of absence because of suicidal thoughts.  He wasn’t in the building, but was in communication with his mom about it and taking the steps towards getting help.  I don’t need to full out worry, but Iworry.

Oh, and did I tell you I wasn’t on call or on duty?

Things I on my birthday

• Homework
• Calling and visiting apartments all around Philly
• Getting nervous and trying to find out about a resident addiced to Sleeping Pills
• Happy Hour, maybe a Happy Hour.  At this point, more likely no.

This profession is good for me

I need to keep myself healthy and strong to fully help others get healthy and strong.  Practicing PT keeps me from going downhill and focused on others instead of myself.

On Confusion without a Course

Is it weird to really not like lazy Sundays?  Currently my Monday to Fridays have been so full of things I love learning, residents I love catching up with, and friends (mostly other RAs) I genuinely care to see.  They’re plentiful and active.

Weekends seem empty.

Grad school isn’t sucking up my weekends or making me lose sleep.  No, it’s more that I can’t seem to mentally or physically do more than study on weekends.  The more is fun.  I miss fun-all of its spontaneity, family visits, trip takings, and sightseeing the city.  I even miss Groups and clubs that I honestly OVERinvolved myself in during Undergrad but gave up for my program.

Where is the motivation?  It’s in the busy, crazy, hectic weekdays where I actually enjoy having plans, having classes, having priorities.

It’s just opposite the normal college student who slumps around during the week and lives for the weekend.

Weird?  Not weird?  It’ll take some time for me to mull over.

On finally making an executive decision.

I will no longer be clicking through my Dashboard Feed (at least for the next 5 weeks)

Graduate School, an RA responsibility, and the small amount of time for family and friends will be my scope and concentration.  I will most likely continue to post my own page pieces because this is a good outlet for me as I go.

Please don’t take me ‘missing out’ on your own blogs as offensive.  I need to dedicate myself at this point of my life.